Saturday, February 17, 2007

Self Mutilation

my split tongue is almost all back together. admittedly it was only 10mm i cut into it but the speed at which it healed up really surprised me. what surprised a few others was that i sliced my tongue with a stanley blade in the first place. Bulbgirl is among the surprised. she said she'd leave me if i did it, but did not. to her it is akin to self mutilation but i see it as aesthetically appealing. admittedly it's not for everyone, but pierced ears won't suit everyone either. some tongues are nicer than others.

also Bulbgirl ratted on me; to my mother! strength in numbers i think is her plan. >.< she (my mother) felt "sick to her stomach" when she heard about what her number 2 son was up to. a difficult conundrum this, should one listen to partner, parents, siblings and friends and not modify my body in any way, or should i listen to that little voice inside? if i follow their advice will there always be a little niggling doubt, what if...?


should a person even ask somebody else not to change and lay on a guilt trip if they do otherwise? obviously they say these things because they love me and don't want to see me hurt (or bleed to death). my thinking at the moment is that i should wait for it to heal a little more and get it done professionally. i'll keep you posted. for now ...gotta split. *groan*

5 comments:

Vicious Summer said...

I say, "why not". It's not much different then getting a piercing, which I used to love to do to myself :D.

My mom cried when I got my nose pierced, but she has gotten used to it and now she brags to her friends (cleverly disguised as the "can you believe my daughter pierced her nose!?" discussion.)

Bulbboy said...

Your parents are hippies though. :)

My parents are island folk.

Monks said...

i am getting old, the only thing i can say is "ouch" and doesn't this mean no lovin' from bulbgirl?

RTB said...

Talk about a good story :)

So this one time, I decided to split my tongue with a Stanley blade...

Bulbboy said...

@ Monks: possibly, but would Bulbgirl want to be with be if i did everything she wanted? i would not be myself then. pleasing others is overrated. =P